Shower shoes suck, my diet has undergone a 360 turn (with a kickflip), and I’m as busy as a beaver (one that also has a financial agenda).
So much has happened in the last week it’s hard to play back exactly how much has happened, but one thing is for damn sure: I loathe shower shoes. That’s about it.
It is honestly hard to believe that I’ve only been here for a week, maybe because of the amount of work that I have done/am expected to do, or maybe it’s because I’ve been so busy in other regards that time is doing me a favor and speeding things up a bit. It’s such a change from the high-school/living at home agenda that I still haven’t quite yet figured out how to balance the school work with eating with social-things with everything else that happens. I’ll just have to give it some more time, though, but one thing is for sure: school work comes first, of course.
Mentally, I’m drained but it’s a good kind of drained, like a good workout for the mind every day that leaves me exhausted but with a feeling of accomplishment. Or stress. Mostly stress, but that’s just my personality type, I’ve accepted that. Being so worried about my schoolwork I haven’t had a whole lot of time to advance myself socially, but that’s not really important yet I think, it’s only the first week. I’ve been trying, more than anything, to take care of myself, which is what really matters. It’s easy to fall for social trends and get distracted, but I manage to pull myself back in and remember that I am here for school and not for an elaborate way to procrastinate and blow things off. I’m sure once I get into the swing of things I’ll be able to multitask a bit better, but for now, I’ll let my sails get accustomed to the winds.
The other odd thing about college that I didn’t quite experience in high school is the feeling of actively pursuing my education with a purpose. In high school, it was a survival game to get into college, but now that I’ve made it, the feelings have changed in a way that promotes more healthy learning. I genuinely want to learn about what I’m going to be doing for the rest of my life, and the reward is, theoretically, a more successful future, instead of better test scores or a higher GPA (which I’m still obsessed with of course, but I feel better about being obsessed with these ones). All in all I’m excited for all of my classes, so that’s a plus.
I can’t help but struggle with maintaining my mental state, however. I would be lying through my fingers if I said I was always happy and satisfied, and I often find myself hitting a rut in the road a few times a day. I’m not sure if this is normal, but it’s taxing as hell. I’m getting better at dealing with these feelings I think, but again, it’s only the first week. Creative outputs like this blog, my journal, and this awesomeeee slam poetry club I joined are extremely helpful with relieving some of that pressure so I’m thankful for these options I have.
I have considered going on hiatus with this blog for awhile due to school, but I don’t think I’m going to, unless I get reaaallyy busy, but I think I will always find time, it may just not be regular. It’s important to stay balanced. On that note, I will get back to college life and other such things. Wish me luck!
Overall week one analysis: pretty good, can’t complain.
Also, here’s a clip that will likely be in a video project that our group has been working on.