Well, well, well. Three wells. Three very deep, very dark wells. Three coins. Three wishes. That’s enough for me.
I have officially started an Adventure Fund. Meaning, I have plans. BIG PLANS. Well, big enough, I suppose. I always manage to have plans that are much larger than I expected. I’m not sure if that makes sense, but regardless, I am very excited. With the work I’ll be doing over the summer, I hope to save up enough to take a trip,,, somewhere. I have some ideas, but right now I just want to go. Just go. The prospect of travel and adventure have been quite the motivating force in the past few weeks, and I am very excited to get out there and see things and take pictures and just experience everything. And write, a lot.
I’ve come to realize that I have been localizing some of my problems. The world is much larger than Rochester, NY, and there are a plethora of opportunities and experiences to be had. Now, I’m not saying that upstate NY doesn’t have these things, I just think it would be refreshing to be reminded of how much is out there. Mostly, I just want to see a really big mountain. I want to just stand on the top of a very tall peak and just kinda, ya know, just scream for a bit. And just smile and look around and I’ll probably cry but that’s okay. It’s the good kind of cry that says: “Hey, look at that. Everything is going to be okay.”
I don’t really have much left in my brain after this week/day/hour, but just know that I might be doing okay and that is a pretty damn good start. Also, I’d like to thank my family for coming to visit me last weekend, it means the world to me. I would also like to apologize for that thing I did. Still feel kinda bad, but I’ll blame it on my youth, while I can. After all, this is the last year I’ll be a crazy, reckless teenager *GASP* Hope all is well on the home-front. ❤ #yolo #yung #panicattacks
At the beginning of this week I decided to take a hiatus from social media, and honestly, it has been incredible. I realized how much time I actually spend impulsively browsing Twitter and Instagram and Snapchat, and it kind of scares me. It is definitely a habit, but one that can be regulated. I think that the best part about not participating in social media is that I learn how to appreciate the moment for what it is, and invest myself in whatever I’m doing for the sake of living, not so that I can post it to my Snapchat story or get a few likes on a Twitter post. I just like to make people happy, and however I can manage that, that will be the best route. I just don’t want to forget to live for the sake of living, and get caught up in what everyone else is doing to the point where I forget about me. Localized happiness. A mountain is localized happiness. I hope to be there.
My mind is pretty cloudy,,, Probably from the sleep thing not happening. I have some pretty cool socks on though, and that’s pretty satisfying. My dreams have been kind of unsettling as well, so every night is an adventure. Adventure is good, though. Just tiring, sometimes.
The plants are doing pretty swell. Growth hasn’t been all too fast the past week or so, but to expect continued growth would be unreasonable. The garden philosopher strikes again.
I hope that you are doing okay,,, I really do.